I just want to cry. I had to work on Sunday until ten o'clock in the evening. And now I'm working again today. I've just worked on my art project for one hour and a half and now reading up what I've missed so far and I feel like I'm falling to pieces. It just feels like everything is falling apart, my art, my study, shyness, social ariendships. I haven't met any of the girls this semester yet (and none of them has reached out to me either). I feel like everyone is doing their own thing and is so busy that no one talks or reaches out anymore. Maag Hal le (where I've had a gig and big part of the are practice taking place) set our an exhibition with students of the Basel University of Art. The opening was today at 4 pm. I didn't go because I don't want to be there alone. It'll be there for two Weeks and I can't take part in the weekend workshops, because I'll be on a trip with my seme ster then. And after that there's going to be a big event with the whole MA programme which is called "Pitching Day" and will take place at Kunsthaus Zurich. I'll be there for sure - then we can get a really good look at each other's works and it's not such a big thing as every one knows everyone anyway. But I'm scared. Because I won't have my work to show then, besides a couple pieces of paper with my statement on them. And da that I've never shown before ever. i want this to work so badly... But I'm scared it won't