I'm a bit sad. I miss Nik. I miss having someone to cuddle with. I miss having someone to talk about my work with. I miss having someone to laugh with and also cry with. I know it's for the best. But i'm a bit sad. And I'm a bit sad that no one else ever really interested me, I'm still a bit scared of polyamory, I fear I'd be jealous I miss kissing also a bit. I miss having someone to kiss. I miss being kissed. I know I'm basically a kiss-junkie, having lost that contact, I guess it's only natural to miss it. I'm scared of meeting Sara because it's gonna be awkward. I want to hug her but at the same time I don't want to touch her with my body. I want to ask for a kiss but at the same time I don't want to touch her with my lips. I want to be friends with her but at the same time I'm scared that this would just be too weird.