One week. Still have to finish my work and pack all my stuff. But in feel alittle better with this. I think a bit of the stress was because of the uncertainty of how it would go. Now I'm just disappointed that I can't be there with them for the opening but i'm also just really excited to get away again. It's an interesting cycle – moving somewhere new, being excited about that, finding my way around, being a little disappointed because this place isn't what i expected, falling into a slump, feeling home sick and then finally settling in again and enjoying it. One thing I do wonder is whether it's worth getting a studio when I'm only there for two months sometimes I think yes because it's nice to be able to work without having to clear everything up every time I want to use my living space. But if most of the time i'll be gone anyways then it's probably just slightly better than sharing a flat with people who are also working at home and probably also need a little bit of peace and quiet now and then. Just one more thing I need to think about when trying to plan everything in my life.. I don't understand why I'm

Today was nice. Went around finding the setting of Rose, then order and ship it all to my studio. Then I went to the opening of the group exhibition at Banca Akros. I knew I should not go because I felt so exhausted, but it was really nice to see everyone again. It was also a very weird set-up, but I guess that's the way these things are right now. The reception was really nice and people were really excited about my work. Also that they didn't get it, but in two years I'd have et I still don't know what I'm doing though. It'll be interesting to see what happens with the residency as well as the application for an exhibition in Berlin which so far looks like it's gonna be a no. I guess it'll be an interesting couple of months ahead of me. 2 15:30 Basel, Villa Wenkstern This week has been nice in terms of catching up with people, especially since so many are gonna be on break now. In general i'm a little worried that I'll miss out on a lot because I'm just so drained all the time and also can't concentrate or do things that take any kind of focus. I need to get back into working out again to work off some stress..

It's Christmas Eve and I have to start thinking about my dissertation topic for my master's degree. It wouldn't be an issue if I didn't have to start everything again but now it's too late to get ready for this next application round so I know I'm just stuck in this