It was an intense week, but one that ended with a good feeling. I was afraid that it wouldn't work out so I'm so happy that it did. I'm now also part of the "Art in Basel" program, which is excellent. I'll be one of the twelve artists to have their work exhibited during Art Basel this year. I'm really excited about this and about my work in general. I got a lot of positive feedback this week, also for my thesis project, from other artists and people who are already working in the field. So yeah, I feel like I'm doing something good here. And seeing all those people talk about my project and get visibly excited... it was just great And there are a few things happening next week as well. On Monday I'll meet with Daniel (my supervisor) and Ezra (the artist who pulled me into the art world). Then on Wednes day I have another meeting with Daniel and Ezra to discuss potential cases for my PhD research. They're quite excited about this one so I hope for a good outcome! And on Thursday I'll meet with Babs again to discuss how we can move forward with the collaboration with Martina I feel like everything's coming together. And because my PhD is fully funded now (thank you to all who helped make this happen), I will also finally be able to start getting paid for my work! Which means I'll be able to start saving up again!

I think it's again time to up my medication and I'm not looking forward to it. And I should go to therapy. But finding someone and squeezing it into my tight schedule does not make me happy. I have work to do, I want to do my work, I don't want to not do my work because of my head. Fundraising for the show is slow and with too much time spend on it. Now need an hour every morning to sort through everything and find new leads. Just want this whole process to be over with.ch so I can start working on other things again, Like the project Sämi asked me for or doing the al booklet for the next well done jury or preparing a few seminars at FHNW

or 2 I don't know. I should be working on the exhibition but I feel like I don't have energy to do so. And I'm thinking about Sami all the time. Yesterday was a great day, we had an open studios event at the residency and I had lots of great conversations with people. who visited. Very interesting and refreshing. In the evening both of us were invited to go for drinks with some other artists from Basel (one is teaching in Karlsruhe and asked me for my seminar series) but because he got a message that he might need some help today 1 said no, he went. Would've loved to meet these people, too. But it's Sunday and the only day off he has, so well. Now everyone else is prepping for the opening on Friday but im just hanging around, not doing much work. Not sure if it's the lack of a clear plan or what it is. And I should be fundraising but im not getting anywhere right now either way. It's frustrating to see how little money comes in per day, especially as I'm putting in hours every day into it... So yeah Thinking about sämi makes me happy but also kind of sad because I would love to see him again will only happen in September), but also frustrated because sex with Nico is not satisfying for either of us and sometimes I just wonder why we're still doing it (probably because we want to make each other happy). And also feeling sad about Sämi because we haven't been texting much recently (al- though he doesn't text much anyways), so l'm feeling a bit neglected there very nice situation with my boyfriend). And also having Relationship anxiety pangs again which is annoying and stupid be- cause everything is going really well between me and Nico.